Week 27: Not feeling it.

I wanted this Valentines Day to be extra special....I wanted to go all out for Kory and give him a lot of love.

I know some women can feel competently "sexy" during pregnancy.....But I am not one of those girls......As you may remember from Alexa's pregnancy, I posted all about how I am not a cute prego person. My boobs are abnormally huge, my hips take in most of the weight, and don't even get me started about my face.

I remember reading the book A Girlfriends Guide to Pregnancy during Braxton's pregnancy. In the book, she went out on a limb and said exercise was flat out pointless during pregnancy if you're hoping to avoid the extra pockets of fat which hide in more places than just your belly. She stated, very few have a "cute little bump" during pregnancy....Most of us at some point will wonder if the armholes of our maternity shirts were made for Chinese women.

At the time, I refused to believe this....So I tried to contradict her argument and workout all my pregnancies in hopes that I can be this "cute little prego girl with nothing but a belly". I especially tried my theory during this pregnancy and held to my doctors calorie count and worked out at least five days a week....But, much to my dismay....I am still that same old fat prego lady. My weight gain was really weird with this one...I gained a lot at the first, but now, I am totally on target and am where I should be....I still have plenty of room to grow before I hit my doctors goal.....But just like the author said, very few are "all belly"....And for someone as short as me (with no where to span out the fat)....I am starting to believe it. Am I upset about this.....Nope. I was upset with Alexa, because I knew that it was my fault, but this time around, I did everything I could....And I will fully admit, I am not a cute prego person and never will be.

All that is fine and dandy.....But there is one thing I hate about this whole thing.....I never feel pretty while pregnant. Now....PLEASE DO NOT TAKE THIS AS MY PLEA THAT I NEED COMPLIMENTS!!!!! It does not matter how many times people say, "Oh Tiffany, you look great" I will never feel pretty....So save your breath.....Its in one ear, out the other. I have a self esteem thank you very much....I just don't while I am prego and that will never change.

So with all that said, when it comes to getting dressed up and heading out with the girls or my hubby....It does not matter how much make up I put on....Or how much time I used to curl my hair....Or even how cute my outfit is.....I will never feel pretty....And I especially do not feel sexy.

My hormones are out of control during my pregnancies, so it leaves me with no choice but to allow myself to feel gross, even around my husband.....But, its hard. It always will be.

This does not mean I am not grateful to be prego.....I am. We get prego so fast its scary and I am always appreciative of my fertility....But its just one aspect of pregnancy that I wish I could eliminate.

V Day was great....I loved every minute of it....But I cannot wait to have this baby and see the real me in the mirror.

25 Weeks: Pregnancy Pull Ups

My name is Tiffany and I am a sprinkler tinkler!

My bladder is pretty much thrashed at this point....And I have only been prego three times!

I feel like I need to wear a pull up!

I made a fool of myself the other day at a party with some friends....I had to sneeze, but in order for me to sneeze without having an accident....I have to cross my legs and then sneeze. This process has become so natural for me, I totally forgot about my "sneezing procedure" when I was standing in front of my friends and their husbands. They laughed. I was kinda embarrassed.

To make matters worse, I cannot even throw up without having to change my entire wardrobe....

And I cannot remember the last time I made it through a step or kickboxing class without a few bathroom breaks.

And I totally have omitted squats and jumping jacks from my exercise routine.....Lets just say I jog in place while the rest of the class is screaming in pain. Otherwise, I will be cleaning up a lot more than sweat off the floor after the class is over.

Doctors say there is nothing they can do about the problem until after all my children are born, however, I am not sure I will even have a bladder by the end of this pregnancy. Its that bad.

Week 24: Update

Well....These past few weeks have been NO FUN!

But there is good news....At this point, I do not have preclampsia....At least not yet. Although my weight gain is suspicions, my blood pressure is 99/60....So doctors are not worried, yet...And I keep hearing "yet".....But I am trying to be optimistic.....Its never a good time to have preclampsia, however, if you know me, and knew the situation we're in right now....You would know this is REALLY not the time for bed rest!!!!

My doctors had me on a strict diet last week in hopes my weight gain was really just "weight gain" and not something else. They were hoping I would lose a few (yes, it was OK for me to actually lose a few LBS and still have the baby be OK). I knew this was not going to work....Seeing as my diet was fine beforehand (doctors of course did not believe me)..... And sure enough, I felt like I starved myself for NOTHING! I did not lose a pound. Needless to say, after tons of tests, it looks like I just retain water really easily. Mainly because my input and output are far from equal. Hence why my doctor gasped when she saw me. Lets just say I am very unattractive right now.

Oh....And I am back to having a girl. No, Kory did not tell me....He actually has been sooooo good!!! But, another midwife did something really stupid and lets just say, my "surprise" keeps getting ruined!!!

I am happy though.....Alexa needs a playmate. It will be fun :)